mandatory meetings

yesterday was a totally maxed out day.

i got home from the restaurant around 11ish and conked out within minutes after bitching about yet another selfish-crazy-unbelievable client for the umpteenth time.

like all other people living in this city i’m juggling work at a couple of diff places and while all of it is challenging in a good way, it’s exhausting. so the whole day was spent in a beautiful conference room with 3 parties, several board members, consultants, engineers, and enough male ego to fuel a space shuttle all the way to the moon. after the careful and meticulous planning, i think our delegation was somewhat shocked by the opening statements (they were not “planned” to say the least). having signed confidentiality agreements and given the fact that this is the internet, there’s no way i can say more in terms of specifics, but suffice it to say that it was the biggest bluff that i’ve seen pulled off, ever. the day was uber productive for the team but i saw once again the reasons why we are soooo behind the other players around the world.

i spent the time before (mandatory) dinner reflecting in the flash garden with a beautiful pool, and lots of beautiful willow trees. i was trying to find solace in myself as i around in the dark and looked over the city lights and unfortunately breathed in the polluted air (which by the way has improved a little bit). the truth is that i’ve been keeping myself really busy but at the back of my mind i have the feeling that i shouldn’t be here. this is not where i am most efficient. there’s a lot for me to do and learn, but all in due time is the response i get from the voice in my head. that, and the regular comments from those around me (including taxi drivers, shop keepers, etc etc) that i should just get used to the way this world is, esp this country… thinking of how much better things can be is only another way to bring painful thoughts to cloud my day.

anyway, i think all the activity and excitement and the hour spent in the chilly garden have taken a toll on my immune system. my throat is itchy. horribly itchy and my body is sore. dad’s going on a trip tomorrow that he did invite me on but i felt there’s too much to do here. so sensible of me.