peace and rain

the massive raindrops pelted against the windows, seeping in through the cracks in today’s torrential downpour. it lasted a mere 20 minutes but i felt like washed away the sins of the city for a little while. i should be out taking pictures and frolicking in the spring weather. instead i’m inside, working on two files that are important to me and worrying about the management decision i made today. i had no idea it would be so hard to deal with human beings in the work place, especially when you have to manage them!

i’ve been grappling with the idea of the interaction of the individual and society a lot and especially in the current context that i am in. the most frustrating thing about being here is the people and their attitudes and well co-existing means that my sphere of existence has to overlap with many other spheres of existence and at times it really becomes a little too much to handle.

so, in short the new assistant that i was training and had such high hopes for is really falling short of the mark and i’m lost. really lost. she wanted to bite my head off during our meeting and it made me a little nausaus. but i surprised my self. my voice was calm and confident despite myself and i made the situation very clear... so sad that she’ll be missing out on so much but that’s her decision reflective of her disposition and (lack of) ambition. not unlike a lot of other people here (and elsewhere).