being

such a great reintroduction to the city. so nice to connect with friends after a while and remember why it was hard to not come back in the fall...
i’ve missed the good stuff. the laughs. the conversations. the meals. the absurdity of working really hard (i’m not sure if this necessarily falls under the “good stuff” or the “missed stuff” category at all, but i certainly haven’t been around it for a while).

although apart from with a few special people i’ve essentially had the same conversation a dozen times.
i don’t know what i should do. i know there is no “right” answer or solution, but i can’t help wanting it all. i want nyu and nyc and tehran and work and toronto and family and happiness and ... all at the same time. i’m not sure which geographical region should take precedent now.
i’m happy though.

wish i could do the whole “being through”... sigh.