summer has left the house

i’m fading but i’m not too worried about it. the summer sun worked wonders for me but now the pigments are fading. the strange part is that i don’t understand why it is cold. i have two calendars mixed up in my head and late october doesn’t seem to register with a specific weather pattern for me. especially here because i’ve only ever been here during the warm/hot seasons* so i don’t associate the city or country as a whole with anything but warmth.

*that’s not accurate: i was here one winter that i remember when i was 7... it snowed and my grandfather’s old garden which was beautiful and huge was covered in a thick layer of white. having not seen any snow in manchester my sister and i loved those days. the memory of standing my adorable and unassuming sister under a tree laden with snow and slyly shaking the tree to cover her with heaps of snow is perhaps one of our fondest shared memories :)