to settle or not to settle?

so the negotiation didn't go as planned. at least my negotiating partner didn't walk out on me after 10 mins... although i would have ended up with a better story to tell. haha. i can't believe we didn't settle though. those darned swimming pools. argh.

there are some things that i should be absolutely terrified of but i just can't seem to work up the necessary energy. i have to re-channel my passions into wanting to do well in some of these things instead of being indifferent.